30 sleeps

Isaac

Who am I? That's a heck of a question. Ostensibly I'm a 30 year old engineering student just entering the final semester of his bachelor's degree. Previously a college dropout (oh the joys of alcohol, marijuana, and slacking off with friends), I finally decided to complete a goal I had half-heartedly set long ago. I am finally within sight of the end, and it's a strange feeling.

I work at a hospital as a 'psychiatric assistant' on a behavioral health unit for children. I've been working in the psych field for over five years. Originally searching for the panacea of my own life, I've come to discover that everyone is fairly crazy to differing degrees, and also that my mission in life isn't to help fix other people so that they can go out into the world and accomplish their goals. My purpose is to go out into the world myself and to accomplish what I must do. I just haven't figured out what that is yet.

I'm a substance abuser with an addictive personality. When I find something I like, I get completely immersed in it for a long time, so the idea of complete immersion for 30 sleeps appeals to me. I've been obsessed with alcohol, marijuana, lsd, reading, chess, music (listening and playing), writing, various people, video games, spirituality, internet chat, and most recently, Texas hold 'em, among other things.

Who am I really? That's what I intend to find out.

I stumbled upon 30sleeps this morning by chance, and I feel a strong resonance with the energy represented by the words on these pages. So here I am.